Awww shiiiiiiiit it’s over with😁😳
oh my god, like seriously… was this just written about me? couldnt be more accurate
I foretell the ending then go and create the cause
I don’t know what we are or even how we got to this point. What I do know is that I care about you, a hell of a lot. I don’t know how. There’s a lot I know. But based on the few things I do know, I’m going to be happy with you. Some way somehow. This is going to work. Because as long as you fight for me than I will fight for you. The best way I can explain it is you make me really happy and being with you.. Well there’s not even a word worthy enough to describe it. It’s scary feeling this way and I still don’t trust it. Shit can change really fast. Times get confusing and I wonder if you really care. I guess only time will tell. I just don’t know if I can handle another goodbye….
A lot can change in a short amount of time. My friends and I are doing really good and that’s most important to me. That’s what makes me happy😊 And then there is my guy. And it’s great. Even though I don’t know what we are, I have time to figure it out. So yes I’m really happy now. For the first time in a long time❤️👌
I’m that dumbass girl who is there for everyone even when no one is there for me. It’s not logic and it doesn’t make much sense but I’m just an idiot that can’t just sit there and not want to worry about or check on someone. I just have this pull to be there for those who are hurting.. Wth is wrong with me? Even those who have treated me wrong, I am still here for them and have their back… Smh. Someone kick me in the throat.
People really just annoy the hell out of me. Your life sucks? Try having no one. Literally no one. And then people want to get there feelings hurt when I say I have no one but let’s get real here. If your upset that I said that, can you honestly say you’ve been here for me 100% from day one? Your answer is no because no one has. Every tough situation I’ve been through I’ve handled pretty much alone or with my family. I’m not talking about some stupid breakup because to be completely honest idgaf about a guy. What I do care about is friendship and loyalty, which is hard af to find when your blunt like me. People are always telling me how I should and shouldn’t be but this is MY LIFE. I’m the one living it and breathing on my own and walking on my own. You gonna breath and walk for me? Nah didn’t think so. I’m pissed the fuck off and I have the right to be. Life has gone to shit. Yes I have a house and good and clothes. That’s not what I mean because I’m grateful for all those things. I’m just frustrated with people. People lie and cheat and steal and are fake and mean. I don’t even know how to deal with it most of the time. I try to be here for others. I feel like I’m a good friend but sometimes I don’t know. Like I feel like I don’t reach people’s standards. Like oh Emily’s not good enough to hangout with us. I understand that everyone needs separation but when you only separate from me, how do you expect me to feel? What if did that to you? You have no idea what it feels like to not fit it and be left out all the time. Like if I wasn’t here it wouldn’t matter at all. If I disappeared tomorrow who would care? No one. And if I try to explain this my friends get mad at me so I’m better off just keeping my mouth shut and typing it out. Because my parents don’t listen and my “friends” don’t care. I’m not important to anyone. I’m the person people would choose last. I’m not anyone’s favorite or number 1. I’m just me. Which most of the time feels like I don’t even exist at all…